November 2013

Fellow Pilgrims of Life, I have not blogged in a while. If the truth be told, I had nothing to say, could not share what was going on inside me and could not see the silver lining. . . . However, today is a new day, in a couple of months it will be a new year and every day that we are alive is supposed to be a good day. Can you believe that this year is nearly over??? I can not. . . I am going to share a little bit of the last 16 months since I last blogged. The one thing that I can tell you is that chemotherapy is not for sissies! I still do not believe that it does any good and wish I knew a whole lot more about Integrative Health. We just do not know enough about our bodies, complimentary therapies etc. and allow the medical fraternity to put the fear of death in our hearts! Chemotherapy : No thank you, I do not want to have it. . . not today, not for me, bladebladebla The day that I had my appointment for the dreaded confirmation - I was immediately whisked away to the Oncology Department. . .do they know we wont come back if they make an appointment somewhere in the future?? The doctor proceeded to tell me what I already knew and informed me that I had to start chemotherapy immediately. I balked, I wanted to run, I wanted to hide, I DID NOT want to have chemotherapy. Did you know that chemotherapy is a poison? It actually started out as a chemical warfare weapon. . .you can google it. . its true! But on that note, if you have cancer, believe you me, Googlethu is NOT your friend. . . Anyway, I told her that I did not think that chemotherapy was a good idea and she looked at me like a school marm would look at a naughtly little girl with ponytails. . . also, she knew full well that she had the upper hand and half an hour later I was sitting in the "chemo chair" with a needle in my arm and the red poison being pumped into my arteries!! Finding the vein was not so difficult the first time - but do follow my posts as I have some horror stories to tell - I had a brief moment of nausea and then sat there for about 3 hours with a "knowing" that this stuff is SO not good for me. . . The first time round was not so bad. . . back home was not so bad. . . but tomorrow I will fill you in on the 2nd time around. . . Much Love Despite a lot of C R A P over the last 2 years. . .I am still . . . just a Pilgrim in the Journey of Life. . .